烦啊^

今天一大早在书房看到BB的trophy
我又开始想了......
BB 改变了我才有现在的我.......
音乐冷静了我也改变了我.....
那么我不可能回报音乐因为他不是人类啊....
那唯有回报BB了.....
but I go bac I dont hav income 2 support myself...
but if I talk 2 samuel s impossible..... coz wil make him trouble...
1...quit job go bac BB
2...continue work fail BB
I dun noe wat 2 do.... I dun noe I dun noe I dun noe....
capt say cum bacc BB s volunteer but he wont say out....
jz mdm wil say oni... now he edi say out.....feel sad if I din go bac....
I scared??? dun dare 2 take d burden??? stress???
responsible??? lead??? teach??? organize???
huh... many many many thg 2 do... PSEC??? violin??? band???
wat d ....... even studies???
I dun noe I dun noe I really dun noe....
but no1 can help beside myself... cant quit studies coz dad wan it...
cant totally quit BB coz I miz it.....
cant giv up music coz s my life.....
dad dun like me 100% in music n BB...
he wan me help him.... but I.... haiz...